No Resolutions

  2025. It'll definitely be a year. Whether or not it’ll be a good one has yet to be seen. Regardless, I’m here and have to keep moving forward. The last few months of 2024 was one of the most challenging and mentally-taxed months of my life and if things went more south, I probably would’ve been a shattered form of myself. 

But I’m still here, bitches.

Things have gotten better for now, but I have this odd belief that if I celebrate anything big or small, some form of the universe will count that as arrogance and swiftly punish me for such thinking. So there’ll be no celebrating from me. In addition to that, instead of reflecting on the past year, I’ll focus on the present ignoring too what the future holds, because fuck me, does it depress me. 

When that over-sized disco ball hit 0 to welcome the new year, I didn’t celebrate. I didn’t even write down any resolutions for 2025. The main goal is survival, me thinks. I got to thinking on that… and I still feel that way a couple weeks into the new year. That’s okay. I did get to thinking, well… what did I want to do for the new year? A few things came to mind, but I wouldn’t necessarily call them “resolutions.” They’re shit I’ve wanting to be doing since the last time I wanted to do said thing. 


  1. Write another book. - I feel pretty damn good when I release one and people tell me how they enjoyed it. Will 2025 bring another poetry collection? A short story collection? A full length book? My bets are on short stories this year, and I have a feeling the poetry will comeback in 2026. And I’m also working on a novella at the moment! That’s a reasonable challenge for the year. Not too lengthy like a book and requires more effort out of my than a short story (or multiple.) 


  1. Release albums with my bands (Massive Denial and CHEAP) - Already recording as we speak. There weren’t any releases of either of my bands last year, so this year it’s all coming at once. Last year I made it a point to work on my vocals and can say I’m getting much better than when I first started. It’s a good comfort zone to get out. Singing is great and more people ought to do it and it’s about time I take my own advice. There’s some cool music there and I’m very excited to share it. I’d love to do some acoustic stuff, but no promises. 


  1. Finally Make a Film??? - I’ve been talking about making a movie for many, many years. I’ve even had a false start on a short film called “Free Marriage Advice,” that immediately shit the bed. So, will I be working on one this year? Hell no, that’s a lot of work from many people other than myself. Making a movie is truly a ship that takes its time moving and a year just ain’t enough for me. Though I do have a couple ideas that could make its way to certain screens, theater or phone, before 2030. Don’t quote me on that. I could also guillera-style shoot a short film if I feel the pressure grow on me and spontaneously shoot one during the summer, or something. Don’t quote me on that either. 


  1. Keep Up With This Damn Blog - I’m hellbent to get this thing monetized so I can get paid for writing??? That’s kind of a goal? I can’t do that until I meet certain criteria. Besides the pocket change that I’d get, it would be validating to me. Like it’s some indicator that I’m doing well in my craft and that I should keep going. Things are uncertain sometimes and I need a sign that I need to keep going. So you will be seeing a lot more blog posts one way or another. (Hopefully paid before the end of the year) 


  1. Get Back into Drawing - I’ve been meaning to do a few cartoons and comic ideas, but I am just not good at my doodles. I definitely need more improvement there. 


That’s about it. Things I’ve always been thinking about. I think I’m avoiding calling these resolutions because I don’t want that pressure on me. I’m already dealing with a lot and don’t need more pressure put upon by myself of all people. I have to be kinder to myself. No one else is going to. You should, too. What’re you dreams, aspirations, resolutions, or fears of 2025? I’m interested to know.


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